I did thing that Idk if it was right or not, to let one being in the dark or to let one being a faker(?). I wanted to make things clear to both, but maybe what I just did just making the thing worst. I got the feeling that the one who’s clueless should know about it, and the one who’s being a faker – it’s wrong to call this someone a faker  since all this person did just to keep the friendship as it’s normally are- hiding what they feels.

There are so much secret lies behind the smiles. Idk, no one knows. Maybe now one of them is hurt, maybe later they blame each other. All I can do is being  a spectator while the guilt will rapidly increasing inside if it actually ever happen (which I hope never. ) Now, the guilty feeling is creeping inside me, still wonder what I just did is right or wrong. Whether after this I’ll hearing about who’s right and who’s wrong.

I want a little figure climbing up on my bed, poking my cheek to wake me up from sleep in the morning,

I want to have someone who will bugging me while I was watching tv just to teach them counting,

I want to sing lullaby and tuck someone to sleep,

I want a cute voice whining to me about their friends at school,

I want to use my pocket money to buy chocolates or ice-cream with only thought to give all those to the person who is waiting for me at home,

I want someone to run up to me, hugging my knees and pleaded me to lift them up so that they can feel the higher atmosphere,

I want a small hand grabbing my pinky finger when walking at the mall,

I want to wipe the tears that rolls on the soft cheeks and told someone that everything will be alright cause I will be there for them,

I want a pair of small lips to kiss my cheeks,

I want someone to keep annoy me because they know everything they did will be forgiven,

I want someone who is always looks for my attention because they know I’m their big sister,

I want someone to looks up to me—as their big sister.